My Life is Turning to Crap

Well........ what do you do if you are still seeing that chicks number come up on your husbands phone? He says that he told her not to text anymore......... but that still has not stopped her. He won't just be mean and tell her off. He won't tell her that she is ruining his marrage.......... I don't want to sound selfish, but would it be too much to ask for him to change his number or block hers. He thinks that it is too much to ask. I guess I am just gonna be stuck in a unhappy marrage for the next 2 years just so I can finish school. I am gonna have to start making an exit strategy!! Any Ideas???

Nursing and Life

Well..... I got into the nursing school and have been using the last few months to get caught up on imunizations and all that junk. I did not get to my goal weight by my birthday but I haven't gained any back either. So really I accomplished nothing this summer besides not going on a shooting spree. I did get my prescription for my anxiety and will probably continue it through the semester.

I almost got a divorce and am now wondering if I made the right decision. I don't know how to trust him anymore. And all the promises that he said that he would do, well, those were just empty promises. I don't know what to do. His mother told me that I should just kick him out and make him pay for everything while I am finishing my school. I just don't think I have the balls to do it. How do you talk about something like that when you are gonna have to rely on them so much for the next 2 years?!?

If it goes badly, I might not be able to hold onto my dream....... Which really SUX!!!

Sometimes I wish there was a night in shining armor. Where ever you are, please come a rescue me.......... make all this bad crap go away........... oh, and can you be wealthy so I can finish going to school............ Just a thought!!!!

Continuing My Weight Loss............

I have been working out every day this week and I am feeling great. I haven't been sore at all!!! I am not ready to see if any of my size 16s fit yet but I think I might give it a try next week.

Still haven't found the camara yet but I might actually start looking for it over the weekend. I know everyone is SO excited to see my fat ass!!!

I will be finding out if I got into nursing on Saturday or Monday........... I will keep you posted!!

                                                                                            Hugs and Crayons~ Heather

Big Fat Transformation...... I hope!!

I have been working out about 4 times a week on my XBOX hoping that I drop 50 lbs by the end of summer. My starting weight is 245lbs. I want to be below 200lbs by the time I turn 29 on my birthday. No starvation diets. Only portion control and working out. My workout of choice has been the Zumba for the XBOX. I have only dropped 5 lbs in 2 weeks but my endurance levels are so much higher than what they were. I will be doing the 45 min workouts very soon.

I would post a picture, but my fat ass lost the camara. (Probably a my mind playing tricks on me again!!)

I will put my kids to work finding the camara right now and will keep you posted on my progress. I don't know if I want to put all my life out there for everyone to see, but I am thinking about turning this into a daily workout and food blog.............. That might keep things interesting!!

Mother's Day

With Mother's Day fast approaching I realized that I haven't blogged in a while. Between school, the kids, and DRAMA, there isn't even enough time in the day to sleep. 

When I got on Facebook today, I saw that one of my classmates had lost her mother last night. Everyone is changing their facebook photo to one of there Mom............. I want to be able to celebrate my Mom everyday!! We don't do that enough. So today is my "I Love You Momma" Day. You never know when you might pick up the phone and your Mom might not be there to 'make it all better'.

I Love You Momma and all that you do for me!!

Here is a picture of my Momma and my oldest Hayle!!!

Whats the Deal

So, you get to connect with people on these Internet sites like Facebook and Myspace........ okay, mostly facebook, and these people say how they have changed, found God, and such. But only to find out that when you read an interesting post about life and decide to make a comment about your own life changing experiences, you are a complete airhead that didn't get it at all. Maybe it is my lack of sleep, or the fact that my fingers still work to type this blog, but my feelings are a little hurt. I have come to the realization that a person can tell me they are changed and it can be compared to farting in the wind unless they can show me. Not by being hurtful in their comments but by explaining their message. I am not a deep person, I wear my feelings on my shoulder where everyone knows what I am thinking. I explain because no one can read minds. And just because I like to cook, comparing my comment to an egg salad while you compair your post to football is a bit juvenile. I miss my family and friends back home. This is why I like these websites. Just make sure that when you tell people you are changed, you mean it.