It's Been a While!!

So it has been a while since I have written my feelings out. It has been almost 6 months since my last post ans still nothing has really changed except for the weather! Just gonna try to make it through clinicals and my nursing, then it is time to take a step back and look at my marrage. Right now I feel like we are just going through the motions and that is not what marrage is all about. Sure, we could start going to church more often but that wouldn't stop my husband from womanizing. I believe that one woman is just not enough for him. Doesn't matter that this chick is nasty, no teeth, elephant syndrome (no offense to anyone who has this) thighs, druggy......... I guess that is his type. The only reason I feel that he hasn't fessed up to his discretions, is that fact that I am a free babysitter for his first 3 children and he knows that I will be moving 8 hours away. He is a great father, just a crappy husband.

I start clinicals in nursing school in 4 weeks and I am so excited. I will get to do shots, administer medications, do physical health assessments....... all that Jazz!!! This is what I am working toward and it is gonna be awesome to graduate and be able to hold my own!! So until next time...... I think my rant is over for the evening!!

My Life is Turning to Crap

Well........ what do you do if you are still seeing that chicks number come up on your husbands phone? He says that he told her not to text anymore......... but that still has not stopped her. He won't just be mean and tell her off. He won't tell her that she is ruining his marrage.......... I don't want to sound selfish, but would it be too much to ask for him to change his number or block hers. He thinks that it is too much to ask. I guess I am just gonna be stuck in a unhappy marrage for the next 2 years just so I can finish school. I am gonna have to start making an exit strategy!! Any Ideas???

Nursing and Life

Well..... I got into the nursing school and have been using the last few months to get caught up on imunizations and all that junk. I did not get to my goal weight by my birthday but I haven't gained any back either. So really I accomplished nothing this summer besides not going on a shooting spree. I did get my prescription for my anxiety and will probably continue it through the semester.

I almost got a divorce and am now wondering if I made the right decision. I don't know how to trust him anymore. And all the promises that he said that he would do, well, those were just empty promises. I don't know what to do. His mother told me that I should just kick him out and make him pay for everything while I am finishing my school. I just don't think I have the balls to do it. How do you talk about something like that when you are gonna have to rely on them so much for the next 2 years?!?

If it goes badly, I might not be able to hold onto my dream....... Which really SUX!!!

Sometimes I wish there was a night in shining armor. Where ever you are, please come a rescue me.......... make all this bad crap go away........... oh, and can you be wealthy so I can finish going to school............ Just a thought!!!!